“Full Circle” Lyrics

INTRO:

Wish the shots woulda hit me at the age of four just to have escaped the pain of it all to go through more. I was born knocking on heavens door;  tears fall rapidly like when the rain pours. Lost my reason to breathe now I’m constantly looking for a way to leave. Is it the best decision or does god have better days left for me up his sleeve? Forgive me father, but I’m finding it harder and harder to believe.  Spark up a Newport  let it burn I stand in line to die and await my turn. Dreams are gone only nightmares here I approach the future absent fear. Lost in a familiar place but  I’m not home because my heart is no longer here.

(1)

Deleted more lyrics than most will ever write but I’m hoping that these will be my final words released tonight saying this is mission critical doesn’t express it right. I’ve got a T.K.O against me still standing, but barely have the will to fight. Shit is crazy please excuse my French I’d start digging, but can’t see past the trench how am I supposed to jump in the game of life while strapped down to the bench. Needle in my vane, prayers probably in vain. Pressure on my brain stability deteriorating while I’ve already got the diagnosis of portions of insane. The best view I see is through points to the rear; looking back past it all helps me to see clear. Been through fire before and I’ve got nothing left to lose, but my heart beat so in a way I’m free without fear.

(2)

I drop the lines for you as much for me if my struggle and pain possibly help you appreciate another side of life you might not otherwise see or maybe just know your not as alone in your pain as things might pretend to be. The mind state is what creates us to be free something no one can ever take priceless like the ability to dream. Stop at one and might miss the rest because I often come full circle as I get my feelings off my chest case in point despite it all and the bars above and below I still feel blessed. Situations get tight and can shake my faith but I hang on like the rest I’m just me aside from lyrically I never claimed to be the best.